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>> Sunday, December 19, 2010

Razack, Sherene H. Looking White People in the Eye: Gender, Race, and Culture in Courtrooms and Classrooms. Toronto: U of Toronto P, 1998. Ebrary. [C]


Well, actually more than 2 - but have not yet written them all up yet ... just finished writing about Sherene Razack's Looking White People in the Eye though, so it feels done while the others don't (yet!).

Writing about the books here is different than the sort of writing I do about them for my notes and annotated bibliography...which is why it is a good exercise, I think... it encourages me to think about them another way - and to think about how I might present them if I were to be teaching them, i.e. to students (or blog visitors) who are not as immersed in the whole Women's Studies thing as I am right now. So anyway ... Looking White People in the Eye...


I think the most important thing that I got from this particular reading is questions to consider as I read other work, watch TV or read the paper, pay attention to the dynamics in my classes (huh! I have no more classes as a student now.... it's all teaching for the time being! Cool, eh?). They include:

  • What stories are told and how are they heard?
  • How does gender interlock with race and disability to produce specific experiences of violence and what language can I use to describe those interlocking realities?
  • How has colonization changed, and continues to change, me? (Razack uses "white people" but since I only speak for myself, I changed the question accordingly)

I really liked that she uses the term "stories" .... sometimes, the work that I am doing now seems so far from removed that the work that I did during my undergraduate work and even in my Masters - but it really is not. It is all about stories, and Razack reminded me of that, and her work encouraged me to think about how the things I worked on and learned before starting my Phd might still be of use.



Anyway....each of the essays in the book explores the way that the eyes of men and women of dominant groups see subordinate women in these complex, interlocking ways. Razack differentiates interlocking from intersectionality by the degree of interdependence; interlocking systems need one another, and by tracing the complex ways in which they help to secure one another, she writes, we learn how women are produced into positions that exist symbiotically but hierarchically (13). Razack argues that power relations deeply shape encounters, and that through attending to them, we can begin to unravel how subjectivity is constituted, how systems of domination are produced, and how better to disrupt and challenge them.



The most useful chapter (aside from the introduction and conclusion, anyway) for me was one in which Razack discusses developmental disability. She advocates for attitudes not of pity but of respect, and highlights ways in which gains fought for and achieved by feminist women may, in courts, work against women with disabilities. It is here, as she notes, that she is clearly in the dominant and privileged position so - for those of us who enjoy white privilege as a matter of course - this is the chapter that most closely models a discussion from our typical position.




I feel that I should clarify enjoying white privilege. This is not, at least from my standpoint - and remember that I have already said that I speak only for myself - a matter of lording my position over anyone else's. It is, rather, an acknowledgement that in our society, I do, by sheer virtue of being a white Canadian, benefit. I am, actually, exceedingly privileged - by not only race, but also in terms of class (I can take time out from working to go to university, and although there are certainly many more class privileged than I, that definitely places me in a privileged position relative to many others). And while I have, at some times in my life, experienced short term disability, here again, I am privileged - and certainly there can be little argument that I have a much easier life than someone who is poor, ill or disabled, and not-white. That does not mean that I am better than this hypothetical person, of course - in many ways, to my way of thinking, it means that my accomplishments mean rather less than theirs do.


So the only real area in which I am regularly in the subordinate position is because I am female - and in Canada, while there continue to be very real disadvantages to being a woman (we are a very long way from any sort of equality yet; patriarchy is alive and well albeit rather more subtle than it has been in the past - but that is a discussion for another day, as I'm trying to write a blog post, not a novel!) - that alone does not render me SO subordinate as to permit me to, as Razack suggests some feminists do, ignore the many ways in which my privilege puts others in the subordinate position.



Of course, in a neoliberal society, we are all equal and none of us are supposed to pay any attention to any of this but hey... there, too, is a rant for another time.



There are so many tangents I am tempted to go off in from here - but the unfortunate reality is that The Goffman Reader is due back at the library by tomorrow and I have not yet begun to read it.... so I shall stop here and get started.


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4 Weeks! Bad Blogger!!

>> Friday, August 6, 2010

Just saw a link to my own site on Stephanie the Rocket Scientist's sidebar and it said I hadn't updated in 4 weeks! 4 weeks!!! Where does the time go?!

I haven't accomplished anywhere near enough work for it to have been 4 weeks since my last update! I have done some - working toward my first comprehensive exam - got my statements written and approved by my advisor, and put together the preliminary bibliography. Now I'm onto annotating it - slower going than I'd like, but it's difficult to sum up an entire work in a paragraph without actually reading the whole thing, right? Will get 'er done - before the 23rd of August.

And then I'll send it to my advisor and she'll send it back with edits and so on and so on ... hopefully will have it all finalized and done by the time the new semester starts.

Other than that, I've caught several really nice bass, played way too much Zoo World on Facebook and dealt with .... ~stuff~

KidStuff, tenantStuff, computerStuff, relationshipStuff, moneyStuff, healthStuff.... just stuff. Lots and lots of stuff. And stress.

Funny ... I have much LESS actual work than usual on my plate right now... and yet I am constantly aware of a feeling of anxiety/panic. Am I less anxious when I'm actually working, going to school, etc. etc....? I suspect not. I think that the difference is that when I am busy I don't have time to pay attention or notice how I feel. I do believe I need to get busy again!

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Serendipity

>> Thursday, October 1, 2009

Sometimes things just work out so well!

Yesterday, I was on my way to lead my seminars - we're talking about social issues and politics in Canada - last week was poverty, this week the main theme was health care.

There was a table outside one of the lecture halls I passed - lots of flyers, etc - for a number of different ~issues~ ... and piles and piles of buttons. They had 2/3 different buttons for race-related causes, several re: environmental issues, and then others re: tuition fees and poverty.

I grabbed bunches of each. When my students' came in I asked them to choose a button from the mess of 'em on the table. Had them get into groups with others who had the same button and discuss their issue, and potential solutions.

Each group reported back to the whole group and from there it was an easy segue into everything else .... led beautifully into the content of the assigned readings and the lecture.

I was, you may have guessed, very pleased with how it went.

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Orientation Week

>> Saturday, September 12, 2009

So ... first week of school was actually quite a bit more interesting than I expected.

Last year, when I started my MA, I alternated between frustrated because I was not getting information I needed and bored out of my mind during most of the orientation sessions. I honestly expected this year to be even more tiresome, since I've got the year behind me.

But it wasn't. Oh, there were a few bits of the program orientation that I really didn't need and didn't get much from - but on the whole, I felt that my time was well spent and that the PTB were conscious of the range of people they were dealing with - not addressing everyone at the lowest level. I REALLY appreciated that..... especially when it came to the TA training session I went to. Last year I did several days worth of sessions - and all of them presumed we knew nothing. This year the one I went to assumed that we did in fact have a clue and something to offer - and it was very worthwhile.

Off to a very good start, I think.

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Back to School clothes

>> Saturday, September 5, 2009

Normally, it wouldn't much matter that I have nothing new to wear to start back to school next week.

But this time round I've lost 6o+ lbs since classes ended in April - and most of my clothes just don't fit well at all.

I do have some smaller size pants - but most of my tops are WAY big and baggy and at this point, just look downright sloppy. I did try to go back to school shopping yesterday, but I guess I'm spoiled now. I gave up shopping at Walartm some time ago ... started buying better quality clothes that last rather than the disposable sort that Walmart sells.

Since I'm still losing, I didn't want to spend money on clothes that would only fit for a short time, so I tried Walmart but OMG the colours and styles this year are HORRID. Couldn't find anything I wanted.... so ... it's off to school in whatever I manage to pull from my very limited stock here. Should have packed better - have been sick this week, plus working my arse off - and the clothes I packed just a few days ago are quickly becoming of the "droopy drawers" variety now.... oh well... having an open house with lots of goodies tomorrow (assuming I get to the grocery store first thing) .... maybe that will fix it.

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Gearing up for another year

>> Tuesday, August 11, 2009

So -pretty much done my major paper -will send that off tomorrow. And that means that I will have met all the requirements of my MA program.

Been working on my RA position stuff as well... hoping to fire that off tomorrow too- although there will be a never ending stream of that stuff over the next few years.

But mostly my time & energy lately has gone into the whole house buying thing - we've got it pretty much all sorted now, although we heard today that the sellers' lawyer wants to delay our closing date - am not impressed with that, but oh well - not like I don't have plenty of other things to do to keep me busy in the meantime.

Got the syllabus for my core course this week - and am really, really looking forward to diving into the new program.

Funny how, a year ago, a 23 page syllabus - most of which is our reading list - would have stressed me out... this year, with the MA thing - and summer school - under my belt, I looked at it and was mostly just eager to dive in and get started.

A week ago I was beyond anxious about this whole Phd thing - now I'm eager to jump in ...and looking forward to the opportunity to learn so much more about all the bits & peices that have gone into the construction of Canada.

I can do this.

And I get to have all the fun of setting up two new offices with bookshelves galore - and ordering new books to fill 'em even. They really should have some kind of points/reward program on Amazon - that would work for me!

How 'bout you? Are you starting new programs/courses this fall? Are you gearing up yet?

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Yay me!

>> Monday, August 3, 2009

I have been working my tail off - in between bouts of major drama about our attempt to buy a house in Peterborough, renovations, and numerous times outs for socialization because people WILL keep having birthdays and parties and dropping by without calling first - to get my 50 page major research paper done.

It is still not QUITE done - still need to pull together my Works Cited ...and it's a bit short ... but it was done enough to fire off to my advisor for editing and that's the main thing, at this point.

Was very, very happy to hit send on that email.

Now to get to work on my research assistant jobs, and start on my 20 page editing project. Fun times! But it sure does feel good to actually accomplish something.

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Pushing myself

>> Monday, July 6, 2009

I still have SO much to get done this month that I have come up with daily goals - 10 pages/day for my major research paper means I SHOULD be able to finish the first draft by Saturday (allowing for one day to go to Peterborough to find a place to live). Which is REALLY pushing it - and it will still need work/editing/the works cited page and all that fun stuff... but the main thing at this point is to get 'er DONE. Then I can futz all I want... until I run out of time.

The Mavis Gallant piece that I need to write also needs to get done this week ... hoping the photocopies I have ordered will come tomorrow but even if they don't, I plan to tackle a first draft tomorrow.

AND I need to do some work on the archives project this week, and start my digital project and ...and...and...

yeah... I have bitten off too much again... but I'll get it done. One way or another.

I've started making time for journalling... it helps. Somewhat counterintuitive to make time for it - it FEELS like I don't HAVE time for such things... but when I do my journalling I'm a lot more focused when I do sit down to work... so it's worth it. I think.

Anyway ..don't know how much time I'll have for blogging over the next bit...but we'll see!

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Looking for a place to live

>> Wednesday, July 1, 2009


Well, we tried looking at student housing last week when Ross picked me up in Peterborough... there is one company that seems to have a lot of it - but judging by what we saw when we stopped in at a couple, they really don't care much about the condition of their apartments.

They don't actually advertise or SHOW their apartments - just put signs outside, and when you call, they tell you to just go by - the doors are all left open. They don't even put anything on the door - so you're supposed to just wander around and peek in windows, figure out which ones are empty and just walk in - more than a little uncomfortable, I found.

At one place we stopped at, the banister was hanging by a thread, and the hallway smelled FOUL. We didn't go up - but it turned Ross off completely. There WAS one of their properties that I could live in - I rather liked it ...but he's now decided that student housing - and anything run by that company - is not for us.

So now I am looking for a somewhat better class of housing... found one property management company that has several buildings that would work for us.... hopefully that will work out. Sent an email and will call them tomorrow.

Me, I kind of like the idea of an apartment in a house - they tend to have rather more personality - but what the heck.... it's not just me. We'll sort it out.

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Awww....

>> Thursday, June 25, 2009

I have been having a not very good week.

This is the second week of the summer school course I'm taking - I get to go home tomorrow!!!! and although I really enjoyed last week, this week, not so much.

Been really cranky, and having a LOT of very negative thoughts about whether I am really up for 2+ more years of Trent. I likes my house. I like Georgian ...I COULD just finish my MA and apply to go back and teach at the college level and....

well, yeah... be bored out of my skull within a few years and all ...but...

ANYWAY... today the secretary was in and not busy and I happened to think of my student evaluations .... almost didn't even ask for them because I was in SUCH a pissy mood... but I did it anyway and guess what????

They like me... they really like me LOL

Lots of really positive feedback from my students - comments about the variety of activities I offered and the effort I put into "helping us to better understand the literature" and they appreciated my use of technology and how quickly I responded to emails and so on.

s'almost enough to make me think I should keep going.

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Home from Victoria

>> Saturday, June 13, 2009

I'm home - after a thoroughly enjoyable week at DHSI in Victoria - but only for the weekend.

On Monday I'm off to Peterborough, where I'm doing course in editing (theory & practice).

As much as I'm looking forward to the course, I REALLY could use a week or so in between! 3 weeks in a row is an awful lot of time to be away.

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A Very Busy Week

>> Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Am in the winding down phase of Congress 2009 now... have attended sessions of the 2 associations that I was most interested in. There are some others here and I might, if I get motivated, check out some other sessions and see what is happening in them....

Or I might just hang out in the Career Corner workshops today...really have not decided yet.

Tomorrow I'll be heading to Brampton, and Friday, meeting with some people re: my research project - hmmm...still haven't done anything about a digital recorder...that would be good to have. It is raining though, and I don't, at this point, feel terribly motivated to go wandering into the city again. The only Staples I remember seeing was near the Home Depot hubby & I stopped at on our way into Ottawa - but I have no idea where that is in relation to where I am now. I'm sure my sister won't mind stopping at a Staples somewhere... or dropping me near one on Friday...will have time to deal with it during the day while she's working and I'm just killing time before my meeting.

Am very glad I thought to bring my umbrella. It is not only functional, but also beautiful .....dark green with hummingbirds and flowers. It was a gift from my mother, and it makes me smile every time it rains as I welcome the opportunity to use it.

Hmm...guess I am not going to a 9 am session :)

I'd best get off my butt and head over to the university centre or I'll end up missing things there too.

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Well that was fun...NOT

>> Thursday, May 7, 2009

cranky flit
Been fixing my screw up this morning. I calculated the second semester grades for my English students the same way I was told to do the first semester.

No one told me that I was supposed to do them differently this time 'round - I guess I was supposed to know, but I didn't..... so the final grades I submitted are all wrong. Yay me!

If I had done my undergrad there, I would likely have known ...but since I didn't....

Anyway, they are fixed now... and for most (all?) students, it will result in a higher mark, so I don't imagine there will be much complaining... but still.... frustrating as hell!

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Ontario Government Reneges on Textbook Grant

>> Sunday, May 3, 2009


A year after the Ontario Government announced that it was going to support all college and university students with a $150 textbook grant, they have reneged on their commitment and now announced that instead of raising the amount as they had promised, they will be slashing it.

Students who receive OSAP (Ontario Student Assistance Program) funding will be the only ones that will get the textbook grant - and the amount will remain at $150 rather than the $225 that was promised.

A similar grant for students who go to a school more than 80km from their home (which I never heard about or I would certainly have applied) is also now being restricted to only OSAP eligible students.

What this decision does - aside from demonstrating that the Ontario government does not follow through on their commitments - is to further remove support from those people who because they work and made good financial decisions, or were born to or married people who did - do not qualify for student funding.

If you have retirement savings or property, the Ontario government will not support your education - not even with loans that you have to pay back - and not even with a grant that in many programs covers only the cost of at most one or two of your textbooks.

So much for the Ontario government's supposed commitment to education.

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Getting Organized - PDFs, Books, Chapters, Photocopies

>> Friday, May 1, 2009


Well, my bookshelf reorganization is well under way ... at least the academic side of my office, which is what I am most concerned about.

Next up, I need to sort out a system for paper. Over the course of my MA program, I ended up with hundreds - or more likely, thousands - of pieces of paper. A lot of our readings were chapters out of books, or other academic articles that we were required to photocopy.

So I have stacks of articles - to do with a whole variety of topics - public texts, fiction, viral contagion, emerging adults, etc. etc.

I am trying to decide how best to organize them. Most citations are by author - so it would make some sense to file them by author - but many also have multiple authors and besides, I am not that good at remembering authors' names ....so likely would never be able to find what I want when I want it.

By subject has potential - but then what does one do with articles that could fit into one or more categories?

I could, I suppose, start my own database to keep track of everything... have been planning to do something along those lines to use to make notes of my readings next year .... I figure that would go a long way when it comes to having to study for my comprehensive exams in the second year... but even though I have the database ability, I am not so confident in my organizational abilities.

And the thought of typing all the info from before into it doesn't really appeal much anyway... hmmm ...sounds like a job for my kid.

Now that I have all of those articles printed though, it doesn't make sense to me to not DO something constructive with them. ...at least organized enough that if I should happen to need one of them again, I can find it and not have to print/photocopy it again.

ANYWAY - if any of you less flitty more organized types has an opinion on a good strategy to use - especially for the offline paper stuff... I would very much appreciate your input.

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Nontraditional student waiting

>> Thursday, April 30, 2009

So - one of my essays is marked and will be available for pickup in the grad student office tomorrow. That irks me, rather, given that it was submitted electronically and the profs all know that I live 2.5 hours away - would have been nice to get it back electronically. At least the mark!

But oh well, I'm going to be there on Saturday anyway - so will find out the worst then. Will just have to try not to think about it too much between now and then!

Final marks were all due in today, so presumably all 3 of my essays are marked.. waiting on those, and also for my draft proposal to come back from my research advisor, and, of course, the ethics board response to my revised application.

I hate waiting!

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Starting to Unwind

>> Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Today, a friend called with a powerpoint problem and I had time not only to help her fix it - but also to walk over to her place (3 miles, YAY me!) and go set up her printer and sit on her back deck and just chat for ages...

and tomorrow we're going shopping.

I don't much care for shopping on the whole - but since my accident back in November, almost all of my shopping trips have been with hubby ...Mr. Do You Really Need That? I'm looking forward to going out without 'im for a change :)

I've been doing the school thing for soooo long without a real break - it's taken me some time to unwind...slow down....breathe....

I could get used to this.

Not TOO used to it though - still got 3 weeks of summer school and a conference to go to ...and a major research paper to write. And will start again full time in the fall of course.

But for now, I have some down time. And Scrooge, my mutt, and I are enjoying it.

It will soon be time to get the boat in the water - I wonder how many calories rowing burns off? Will have to find out!

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One Difference between Graduate School & Undergrad

>> Saturday, April 18, 2009


.... there is a whole lot more food! And much of it is free.

Gotta like that - although when you are on a <1000 calorie a day diet it can be a ~bit~ of a challenge.

I don't know if all universities provide free food to graduate students, but mine certainly does. During our Graduate Students' Orientation week there were all sorts of free meals - and then there were the Thursday teas at Traill, which featured cheese and fresh scones.

Some of our profs feed us too - and buy the first round when we go out after class :)

This week, one took us out for lunch, and another invited us all to a Gala event to mark the end of the Graduate Students' Symons Lecture Series (which I didn't get participate in all year as it conflicted with my TA responsibilities).

Definitely one of the perks of being a graduate student....although since I live 2.5 hours away from school, it can be difficult to take advantage of many of them. But we did make the effort this week.

Still haven't decided about the next big do which is on May 8 - a reception for all the graduate students. I probably wouldn't go, but I should have another scholarship check to pick up by then .... so for $5k AND free food, it might well be worth the trip :)

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Possibilities....

>> Sunday, April 12, 2009

So ...found out that my university email account has been being obnoxious and not forwarding my email consistently! BAD BAD email!!

It could have led to me missing a perfect job opportunity ... fortunately the co-ordinator of the program emailed me about it separately from the group email that didn't make it through and this one did.

Will hold off on saying too much about it until I see if it works out - BUT - it's a work at home kind of job for the most part AND it requires a geek which I happen to be AND it would look very nice on my CV... assuming that some day I get around to putting one of those together.

The other email I missed was one about changing dinner on Wed. in Peterborough to lunch .... that SO does NOT work for me... Ross already had to tell his boss that he was't available Monday & Tuesday because he has to drive me to & from school (last week - final exams - OMG the MARKING I am going to have to do in the next week or so is UNBELIEVABLE) .... and that he needed to be done by 4 on Wednesday. That was doable - lunch, with a 2.5 hour drive on either side of it, is NOT. He says he doesn't mind and has offered to talk to the boss... but geez, that is a lot to ask.

This nontraditional student gig is hard enough without the complications of living in the boonies and not being allowed to drive!

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